Angels

Separated by friendship, I gaze at the thought of what might have been.
To go through many trials but never to settle for anything more than what we are.
While I must endure the choices you make, I cannot say I never wanted to be your only choice.
Your non-superficial ways have made me warrant for any woman like you.

These feelings aren't inconspicuous, this I know.
You have shown many times that you are aware of how I feel, but it is my responsibility to make sure they do not cause harm.
Lately, it has been getting more challenging but somehow I manage.
I must, in order to preserve the friendship we have created over the years. 
These words should be forbidden but they leave excruciating pain when left unspoken.

I have enjoyed every moment we have spent together, they leave me to question my own perceptions in life.
Can there really be such a thing as an Angel?
You show signs but why do others not?
You wander seraphically around others, so it comes as no surprise that you have found someone that sees through your exterior.
Oh what I would give to be in the place of your golden gated arms every day.

For the time being, I shall rightfully respect your decisions on the person you have chosen to love you through adversity.
The hurt will have to eventually disappear, as Angels are sure to roam the world in numbers.
Only time will know when I get to meet my Angel and she will love me eternally and express it as much as you have.

Insight: This poem requires much processing of each word. Try your best to understand. If you in fact find it difficult  contact me to discuss the poem.